Sunday, August 24, 2014

let them in

I've done a lot of moving from place to place in my seventeen years. It's been good for me. I've gotten to meet countless diverse people and see different places. Because of all this, the love for travel and exploring is instilled in me. I can't escape it. (Thank my parents.)

I always thought I was honest with people (honesty can get you into trouble sometimes) and didn't hold back much. Maybe I don't.

But last night I realized that I've been in this town for two years. That's not counting the half year I spent away, and it might sound crazy, but two years is a really long time for us to be in one place. It's long enough to really know people, not just meet them. It's long enough to find out that those people are human and mess up too. It's long enough to see that people can love each other despite all the mess we make.

Last night I realized before I was holding back. Sure, I made friends as a kid and we had fun. I was open about my life, about what was going on. But part of me still held back. I knew we could pack up and leave anytime. I knew that if I made close friends they could become faraway friends. It scared me. Leaving people you love hurts and hurt scares me.

I realize now that I've let my guard down. I didn't know I let it down and I didn't know I even had a guard to put up. But I guess I did. I haven't just been honest and let people in, but I've started to care about people, really care.

With life, people can be taken from you in a split moment and be gone forever. When that happens, it hurts. It burns, aches, and throbs. But I'm learning that if we don't give all we've got now, when will we? Wouldn't I rather live a life full of pain and joy than a life of enduring dullness?

I do want to be genuine and not hide behind guarded walls. I don't want to just not hide, I want to let people in.

Monday, August 18, 2014

what I actually do with friends

I may or may not drag my friends into crazy things. Rachel, thanks for being a good sport. And for making sure I didn't get lost tubing down a river. Or climbing a water tower.

Road trips are fun -- even if they only last a day.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

oh the excitement!!

So I'm starting a business. You guessed it, it's a photography business. I didn't think I would or could do it, but it can't hurt to try. I have nothing to loose. And I'm really, really excited about this. You can see the website if you click here.

I think people should take more chances in life and (I know I've said this before) do more things that make them feel alive. I'm actually following my own advice this time.

The moral of this post? Live boldly. And maybe like my photography facebook page and check out the website? Yeah, I'm sounding desperate now. Sorry. I'm just excited.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

good things that have happened lately

  • someone ordered my favorite drink at the coffeeshop because I told them it was my fav drink
  • I ended up running with the local cross country team (even though home schoolers aren't allowed to join). we gave each other high-fives. 
  • my pretend brother gave me a film camera, my uncle gave me a film camera, and then my real brother gave me a film camera. these guys know the way to my heart. 
  • I found a brand new pair of jeans (that fit) at a thrift store.
  • I've been hiking a lot lately. 
  • my friends and I sat around a table eating sandwiches and talking about lord of the rings
  • I picked up a random book at the coolest bookstore ever and bought it. 
  • 24 more days until I get to see this girl
  • I left the lights on at work last night and it made me glad that I only live 3 mins away. 
  • I have exactly half a year left before I'm an adult. 
  • I'm not sure if the statement above is good or not. 
  • I finished a bunch of books.
  • There's hope in this world. 
  • And Jesus is always here, too.