Wednesday, February 6, 2013
my heart will sing no other name
LISTENING TO: forever reign // READING: obsessed // WATCHING: american experience vol. #3
I think as I get closer to God I realize more and more how empty I am on my own, how messed up I am and how much I really need God. I don't think there's really anything in this world that can truly satisfy but something bigger us, having faith in a just and loving God. Even if we spend our whole life searching for meaning, we can't really find it unless we go to a bigger source than our knowledge. We humans really are quite small. It's funny how we come up with these new inventions and things and think we're so great when really life is fragile and short. After all, what will matter in the end?
Enough about endings. I feel like lots of new things are beginning for me. It's almost as if all of a sudden I should be grown up. I got to drive today, been busy working, juggling school, and maayybe getting to do something really exciting (saving that until I know for sure). I need to be in charge more and do some scary things, but through it all, I like this growing up thing. It's sad to stop being a kid, but hey, there's nothing I can do about it so I might as well make the best of this.
I feel like my posts are so rambly and all over the place, but was always meant to be a journal, not just me writing to please other people. If others enjoy reading my thoughts then I'll gladly embrace that, but I think I learned a long time ago that you can't please everyone, and when you do that, nobody is happy in the end.
So I'll sum this up and say that my Jesus never changes, even when I constantly run to this and that and then come sobbing back to him. It's crazy how his love never fails, how he could have everything he could possibly need but give it up for me, so I might have life. All I can really do is sing or stand in awe of him. Because now I have everything I could ever need or want.