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Monday, January 28, 2013

the last monday I'll ever be fifteen.

 photo IMG_8546_zps6f1212b0.jpg It's kinda funny how life is. It seems like it will take forever for you to grow up, forever for Christmas to come, forever for your birthday to be here, forever for summer. And then all of a sudden, you realize you're almost grown up and everything comes a little too fast. It's not that I don't want to grow up. In fact, I'm super excited and can't wait. Yet there's still apart of me that's a little sad to leave the kid part of me behind. Growing up usually means you have to worry about things in life and take things really seriously. I don't want to be like that. I think having Jesus and knowing he's there makes things better. I don't have to worry about anything, really.

Life has been good the past week. The first two weeks of this month weren't the best, in fact for me, they were pretty much awful and I don't normally complain. I was really struggling with doubting if there was a God and who He was, I kept asking myself questions that didn't really have answers and it was driving me nuts. I've realized now that you really do have to believe some things in life. If not, life isn't too good. Besides, I've seen God work in my life and other's.

I'm learning to just live in the moment, too. I know that phrase is soo cliche, let me explain. Instead of worrying about doing this or that and beating myself up when I don't get it done, I'm learning to take things one at a time. Asking myself if what I'm doing is actually going to build me or others up helps to. I finally get why Jesus says to die to yourself so you can truly live. Doing things for him (even if it seems much too hard at the same) in the end is so worth it.

Well, I need to go study for that permit test I'm taking next week. Hello, sixteen!


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6 comments:

  1. I just turned 16 a couple weeks ago -- it's a great age. :) Love your bulletin board!

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  2. Cute bulletin board!! and happy birthday early!! 16, from what I recall, was a pretty great year for me! I hope it will be the same for you. And never stop shining for Jesus, Kendra! You motivate me every time I read your posts, to get in the Word daily and to not stop following after God. :) Love ya!

    Manda
    http://meandjesus-amanda.blogspot.com

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  3. Wow I like totally forgot about your birthday... I'm such a terrible friend! haha I love your bulletin board! the purple card really makes it awesome. ;) and awesome vintage camera i didn't know you had!

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  4. Ah...sixteen - make sure to tell me whether it's worth it or not by the time my birthday rolls around. If it's just a terrible year - I think I'll skip turning sixteen. :)

    But seriously - happy (early?) birthday - since of course I don't remember what day it is. And as for your "horrible" week - - I can completely relate! Between pity parties, skyping my sister, and stumbling across this dust-covered book of verses by topic, God's been working...so my week has been horrible, but wonderfully good at the same time.

    Praying for you and hope you have a wonderful new year!

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  5. --- and your bulletin board is adorable!! :) It makes mine look like a sleep-deprived lunatic pinned random quotes all over the place...which is actually-probably-unfortunately-positively true. *coughs*

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  6. Whom you love, I'll love.
    How you serve, I'll serve.
    If this life I lose,
    I will follow you!
    :)

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