Wednesday, May 9, 2012
I try so hard. I try too hard. I beat myself down when I don't do what I'm supposed to do, or when I disobey God. Whatever happened to simply trusting in God, whatever happening in forgetting what's behind and focusing on the future?
I want Jesus to become my all and all, and yet sometimes, I try too hard. I need to let go, and draw closer to Him, instead of trying to clean out every bit of sin so I can be good enough for Him. That's not how Jesus works. Draw close to Him, and He will cleanse you. No one else to can get rid of all the sin, except for Christ.
Oh, if only I could understand how simple it really is! Jesus doesn't want us to come to Him perfect and spotless. He wants us to come running to Him when we're broken, so He can put His arms around us and heal us.
And so, I look ahead. I focus on what's in front of me, not my past mistakes. I focus on today, focus on living, not in my own perfect ways, but fully relying on Christ.
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