Thursday, September 18, 2014

10 rules for life

I need these, too, so I wrote them all down. Now I shouldn't forget them. 

1. always make sure you have enough time to stop, look someone in the eyes, and listen. it means a lot. 

2. sit down and eat a meal at least once a day. this does not include sitting and driving. 

3. stop comparing what everyone else is doing to what you're doing. it's ok to observe, but not to bring other people down or vice versa. 

4. be alone at least once a day or else you'll go nuts. 

5. stop rushing through things and start to really care about what you're doing. 

6. create something new at least once a day. this can be a sketch, an image, a chapter of a book, or anything. 

7. don't look at schoolwork, homework, studying, or whatever you wanna call it as something bad. look at it as learning, because you're always gonna be doing that. 

8. don't be narrow-minded and step into someone else's shoes for a second. 

9. tell the honest truth, even if it hurts you. 

10. don't be afraid to say no or "I can't do this anymore." 

11. it's good to be serious but make sure you laugh, too. your soul needs that. 

12. try to see the best in people but don't always assume they're going to treat you perfectly. we're all human. 

13. remember it's not about you, Kendra. be a servant. 

14. people are great, but people can make you really tired, so just read a book when you need it. and read good books. 

15. go on a lot of long runs and listen to a lot of music loudly. 

16. change can be scary, yet that doesn't mean it's all bad. 

17. smile. because sometimes life is rough and everyone could use a smile. 

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

oh hey Brunswick

I left for Brunswick five days ago and maybe I should've at least let social media peeps know what I was up to, but oh well. I'm staying with a very good friend and we've been up to all kinds of things. Hannah (the very good friend ha) is an artist and a photographer at that, so we've been up to creative things like editing pictures and staying up in the early morn hours planning photoshoots. We've also done non-creative things like work on homework and watching Pride and Prejudice.

Sometimes it's good for the soul to get away and be somewhere different, but be somewhere where you still have a place. This was supposed to be a vacation, but it seems like every moment is filled with something else we want to do. Which is ok. Life is too short to just sit around and relax.

Here's to new friends, impromptu photoshoots, long convertible car rides with the top down, and accidentally leaving your phone at home. (And realizing that you didn't really need your phone after all.)

Sunday, August 24, 2014

let them in

I've done a lot of moving from place to place in my seventeen years. It's been good for me. I've gotten to meet countless diverse people and see different places. Because of all this, the love for travel and exploring is instilled in me. I can't escape it. (Thank my parents.)

I always thought I was honest with people (honesty can get you into trouble sometimes) and didn't hold back much. Maybe I don't.

But last night I realized that I've been in this town for two years. That's not counting the half year I spent away, and it might sound crazy, but two years is a really long time for us to be in one place. It's long enough to really know people, not just meet them. It's long enough to find out that those people are human and mess up too. It's long enough to see that people can love each other despite all the mess we make.

Last night I realized before I was holding back. Sure, I made friends as a kid and we had fun. I was open about my life, about what was going on. But part of me still held back. I knew we could pack up and leave anytime. I knew that if I made close friends they could become faraway friends. It scared me. Leaving people you love hurts and hurt scares me.

I realize now that I've let my guard down. I didn't know I let it down and I didn't know I even had a guard to put up. But I guess I did. I haven't just been honest and let people in, but I've started to care about people, really care.

With life, people can be taken from you in a split moment and be gone forever. When that happens, it hurts. It burns, aches, and throbs. But I'm learning that if we don't give all we've got now, when will we? Wouldn't I rather live a life full of pain and joy than a life of enduring dullness?

I do want to be genuine and not hide behind guarded walls. I don't want to just not hide, I want to let people in.