Monday, July 21, 2014

four things



Maybe I just stop apologizing for not posting more and accept the fact that I'm not good at consistently posting.

Life is chaotic sometimes, in a good way.

Here's four things that have made these past weeks full.

01. Work 

I almost don't wanna call it work, because I like it so much. Don't get me wrong, my first "real" job has been challenging. It's also made me overflow with gratitude and made me realized how blessed I am to be a barista at a place like Harvest. My coworkers are the best and the customers are great (for the most part -- there's a few nutty characters out there).

I'm not naturally outgoing. Some days I think, "If someone asks where the bathroom is one more time, I'm gonna scream." Some days I just give people my most convincing smile when what I really wanna do is go for a long hike in the woods all by myself. It's exhausting. But a good exhausting -- if that makes any sense.

02. Miscellaneous Things

This includes driving to the recycling center or editing a 20 min. vid for my dad's ministry. I think it's this stuff that takes up the most time. It's all so random that I normally don't remember it.

There's also a surprise miscellaneous thing that I'll reveal soon here. Keep your eyes peeled.

03. Studying

I can't say I've done as much of this as I wanted to. Of course, I never can seem to do as much as I want to. I'm mostly working on this US History course that's taking me two years to finish.

04. Having "Chill Time" 

This is normally me recovering from all of the above. I end up lying in my bed with headphones and my computer. I feel like I waste way more time online than I used to. I'm changing that. Goodbye, Netflix. (Yeah, I even deleted my free trial yesterday.)

I'm so tired from everything else that when I come home I want to do absolutely nothing. It's pitiful. I think all my creativity decided to bud wings and fly away forever. Sometimes you have to force yourself to be creative and then the inspiration comes. That's what I think.

Now here's some random pics from work.


Not to brag or anything (ha yeah right) but I can make a pretty good vanilla iced latte.


Some unique buildings across the street.


Our little sign. We use a lot of chalk.


Told you we used a lot of chalk.


I'm not sure if customers think I'm creative, have terrible handwriting, or desperate for tips.


I get to play all the coffee shop music I want. Life is good.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

embrace you

I'm won't lie;  I'm hard on myself. Sometimes I'm really hard on myself. I have very, very high expectations for myself and I don't always meet those high expectations. I usually end up working even harder after I fail those high expectations or I give up altogether. It's a bit sad, actually.

I also like to think. I think so much that sometimes I don't even like thinking anymore. I think about what would've happened if I had done this or been this or hadn't have done that. I think about why this was made this way or what would happened if it changed or disappeared absolutely. Or I simply blame myself for why this happened that way and if I had done something different it could've been better. (Sound confusing? Try being inside my head for a day.) I told you I was hard on myself.

I used to try and fight it. I would tell myself that overthinking is bad and I always try to complicate things when really they're simple. That would only leave me in more of a daze. It wouldn't leave me being any easier to myself.

Truth be told, it makes my heart sad to see us humans beating up our own personalities. Why would we hurt ourselves? It's selfish. It's wrong. It's cruel. And it's not fair to us, but especially not fair to the people around us. All we're doing is thinking of ourselves and how we wish we were better. All we think about is me, me, me.

I think I need to stop thinking of myself. That doesn't mean I stop thinking. We need thinkers in this world. Maybe there are more people who think like me, maybe there aren't.

Maybe we just need to forget about ourselves for a little while and start thinking about how to love other people. Maybe then we'll find that we've embraced ourselves.

Embrace life, embrace you. It's ok to fail, but stop being harsh to you and, ultimately, other people. Just keep going and embrace.








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Wednesday, July 2, 2014

before summer is over




Before summer is over . . .


  1. Go on a long hike (even if it's hot). 
  2. Eat watermelon on the back porch with your brothers and sisters or your friends. 
  3. Write a long letter.
  4. Read a thought provoking book and a cheesy book, too. 
  5. Eat a bunch of frozen strawberries or froyo or anything frozen. 
  6. Go to a thrift store or somewhere that has CDs for cheap and pick out a random one to listen to.
  7. Find something you're good at that you didn't know you were good at. 
  8. Help someone finish something.
  9. Tell someone you love them (it can be your grandpa or your little sister or anybody). 
  10. Take a shower, wash your pjs, and wash your sheets -- then go to bed all clean. 
  11. Sleep with the windows open. Or just sleep outside. 
  12. Do something (that's not completely stupid or dangerous) that scares you. 
  13. Go shopping and buy something fun.
  14. Earn some money somehow. 
  15. Cut your hair or try wearing red lipstick or try something on that's new. 
  16. Go see your grandparents and ask them questions.
  17. Read a history book.
  18. Go somewhere out of your country, or your state, or your town, or your house. Just go somewhere.
What do you want to do before summer is over?